Self Reflection

Aug 20

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Aug 19

that time of the month again!

Salaam.. so just posted this awhile ago…

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so umm.. i believe this must be me PMSing, it usually takes me days or atleast hours deciding to post sensitive and personal post on my IG. cuz heck i know people will start judging once posted. but not this time. it must have got into the heart that these questions become even more sensitive and annoying to me. as if i never tried.

i was talking to my friend earlier cuz we’re on the same phase now except the boyfriend part. how her Mom keeps nagging to look for permanent jobs and so does my Dad, with the raya visits now, these questions are really ‘bari malas to answer’, seriously uncles, aunties, sisters, bro! u think i didnt apply? u think i can apply anything i want? yes im picky cuz i know my standard which im not orang genius who can do anything and i dont want to waste my nervous and time on something that i know i wont get picked. same old same old.. “inshaa Allah ada tu karang rezeki” i’m thankful for ur comforting words.. but at some point.. which my friend also agrees (or many other unemployed people might also) its makin us evenmore feel pathetic and demotivated (or we’re just weirdos). i know that people care. but sometimes..we need space. we know we’re at a stage of a burden-to-everyone now but its not what we want either. we did try. we did look for vacancies. and it made me smile a lil bit earlier on, when my friend mentioned “nda ku suka wah mcm kana suruh apply2 kana bagitau2” cuz OMG babe, i feel the same way too!!! like for me, makin kana pajal apply makin me malas kan mikirkan. 

i know i will get lectured with this weird mindset. but thank u my friend at least we understand each other *fist bump* and why do i feel like crying now, dont!

hey, i know ull start judging me. but its ok.

Aug 17

Meeting HRH The Crown Prince of Brunei

Salaam,

Yesterday, 16082014, was the opening ceremony of UBDs Convocation Festival, yeyy graduation in two weeks, im oh-so-excited!

i remember missed the opening during my degree convo, the fact that im not planning to further to PHD, this could be my last graduation so i dont want to miss this! plus it was on Saturday, Nisa’s cuti day and i was given off day, SO WHY NOT?? we got the time to spare for this 

the day before, Nisa wasnt aware of this event and that also means we never planned to go nor talked about it until we had this conversation and i mentioned to her,

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the next day, i was so exhausted from the photoshoot i had the night before that only ended around 11pm and only slept around 1 am, now im still considering, if we should go or not

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looks like 8 am is too early for us. We are on Solat break, incase youre judging we didnt wake up for Solat Subuh hmmph. it was..

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to come at 8 was impossible for us. i texted Nisa soon after i woke up. 7.36am, not gonna happen. but somehow we made it! one and a half later that is. we only stayed in the car cuz it was already too late to enter the venue and for about 15 minutes spying around the area from where we parked *hahahaha* students and committees started lining up on the sides of the red carpet. we innocently (being late and parked at the VIPs area) went out and joined them waiting for HRH the Crown Prince to berangkat balik. we were all of the sudden so excited cuz we could get the chance for the selfie! but… we were too shy and scared to ask since we were the first ones in line. but somehow i dont know what drives the determination in us, we catch up the line towards the end *OMG imagining this again, it was so embarrassing* and tadaaaaa

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and that doesnt end there! this morning, Nisa whatsapp-ed me an image, looookkk whos in the paper today!

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*bottom far right at the corner of the page!* hahaha we are one the Brunei Times today!! colored and quite a size picture, i immediately purchased a physical copy for Nisa and my self. cuz goshhh this is random, kinda unplanned and lucky of us. image

i finally found a perfect picture for my empty frame that has been on the shelf since forever :D and to sum up

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going clockwise, 

  1. Us, with Yeshan, international student from Mauritius we newly met, and bumped into Avaz, our coursemate from Uzbek
  2. Us, with Malin our friend from the Core days
  3. Us, getting ready to selfie with HRH the Crown Prince which didnt happen 
  4. Me, with the venue in the background, the new Faculty of Science building
  5. Us, with HRH the Crown Prince

Happy me is Happy!!

Fizah

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Aug 09

lionofallah:

We must remember that Allah sees inside of us, so we must look inside of ourselves. When we are faced with a conflict, even if the other person is wrong, we must ask ourselves “What have I harbored internally that added to this conflict?” If we become angry, we should ask ourselves, “What do I have inside of me that triggered that reaction?” We only keep theories of Divine and Prophetic teachings. We must work to harbor them.More Inspiration | www.lionofallah.com

lionofallah:

We must remember that Allah sees inside of us, so we must look inside of ourselves. When we are faced with a conflict, even if the other person is wrong, we must ask ourselves “What have I harbored internally that added to this conflict?” If we become angry, we should ask ourselves, “What do I have inside of me that triggered that reaction?” We only keep theories of Divine and Prophetic teachings. We must work to harbor them.

More Inspiration | www.lionofallah.com

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