Sambutan Ulang Tahun Hari Kebangsaan ke-30 Negara Brunei Darussalam
Salaam all.. wow what a title right. erm.. im not sure what exactly that in english.. lemme try. ooh wait, let me google translate, easier or accurate that way may be.
wow~ ok. haha my poor-English feeling wow-ed me.
well anyway.. i get extra patriotic this year and im glad i am. Alhamdulillah, in my 25 years of living i finally made time and attended for THE FIRST TIME EVER (:( shame on me!) Brunei’s National Day Celebration. its a heart-warming feeling to be able to witness my self, especially to see thousands of locals gathered together to be part of this yearly eventful ceremony.
Its the performance that everyone has been looking forward to, of course. but being me its the littlest thing that i always look into. one thing that touched my heart most, that it made me stopped for a sec cuz i cudnt let my voice out, was when everyone stood up and proudly sang the national anthem. oh my god, in my heart, i couldnt be anymore thankful to be living in this country. i feel blessed. forget about our never ending wants that we always complain so expensive. its the basic needs the Bruneians being served in this country are almost free. Syukur Alhamdulillah. after all we need to survive, satisfaction comes second.
another thing that caught my eyes yesterday was, those people who have been working hard to make sure the safety of everyone in the stadium. the policemen, securities, shuttle-bus people, the red-crescent. My utmost thank you to all of you. you all deserve an applause, pat on the shoulder and our biggest smile. Good Job!
Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati Bumi Brunei Darussalam dengan keamanan dan kesejahteraan selama-lamanya. InsyaAllah.
its already almost the end of February of 2014.. feels like, its only been days ago we entered the new year. im in an unemployed phase of life and i feel that, it is the most uncomfortable state of being a person.
oh awesome! i get to wake up late while everyone rushes to go to work
this job hunting thing is just tiring
i need to get employed but im not ready to be employed
great i can window shop while not many people are around the malls
sigh, i cant go shopping i dont have that much of money
ouch, i got rejected
glad i dont get the job
whew, nice weather to just stay indoor curling up in bed
just one moment youre enjoying it, the next time its depressing you. get it? idk.
ive been sitting for written tests for few posts i applied in the government sectors but non seems to favor me. i havent been able to answer the questions correctly and it sucks big time. it feels like continuously failing in exams. attended psychometric tests for some posts, but this is just not my thing, as hard as i tried i just cant do well although I got through the last one i attended (what a miracle). And i screwed my interview all the time. never i did well. i just feel like im not fit to any officers positions. and the thing im up to now.. does not help either. just.. i havent done things right. or its just me.
nervous, disappointed and awkward are just the worst combo ever. and its been happening a lot these days. :(
Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, tabahkan hati hambaMu, bukakan pintu rezeki bagi hambaMu, berikan ketenangan hati hambaMu, berikan petunjuk dan kesabaran. things might not go as what have been planned but gotta always believe what You have planned and prepared must be something way better. note to self: usaha, doa dan tawakkal.
Salam… here i am, back in this space letting the mess out of my mind. i have been so tired from awkwardness, nervousness and excitement. Dilemma, regret, anger and happiness all come together at a time.